Such a ContradictionI'm just that fat kidStarved of hope.I'm just that cutterReaching for rope.I'm just that dumb blondeReading all night.I'm just that cowardBleeding for a fright.I'm just that childWithout care.I'm just that girlWith messy hair.I'm just that burnerWanting to be cool.I'm just that geekScared of school.I'm just that emoSmiling with glee.You're just another droneBut you'll never be me.
HatredSomeone please save me from the tears that I've cried. Someone please take away the times that I've tried. But hurt you deep down inside. Please,someone take me and make me better. For the times I made you sadder. I hate me for being so rude. I hate me for hurting you. I hate me for what I truly am not. I hate me for being a jerk. I hate me, it's true I don't smirk.I hate myself for putting You through pain. I hate me for being so vain. I hate that my words at times hurt. I hate me for that one time I treated you like dirt. I hate what I am when I hurt you. I hate that it makes you sad and feel like I deserted you.I never wanted it to be that way. But I'm dumb and stupid and say the wrong things. I'm ashamed I even said the things that I did. I'm sorry, I was childish. My own worst enemy is me. But he hurts you too and that's not what I want to see.I hate me for being....so dumb.